life has changed so much since i last entered my bloggie....

one thing's for sure... i can do about 75 pull ups in a day.... 3 sessions of 15 pull ups. 25 push ups. 5 pull ups. rest. 5 pull ups

i'm damm scared to check my weight cause i think i've put back what i've lost from bmt.... yahz.... i lost 6kg after i POPed... now uh... now now now.... i feel fitter... but i also feel fatter.... good and not good... lol...

ok basically these past few weeks i've been in the Air Wing... basically the air force part of OCS... i graduate from there in about 2 weeks from now.... unbelievably fast.... yahz... somethings i've learnt there is that i've met the rest of my comrades. The Pilots.

friends asked me about my love life since my blog is kinda like out of date.... wellz.... right now things are kinda hazy.... she knows about my feelings for her... but yet somehow someway i'm starting to feel that its getting harder and harder to reach out to her.... being stuck in camp is one thing... and more importantly with her flying and preparing for her A levels... somehow i dunno... is it worth fighting for? is it worth dying for?

perhaps i'm still really not ready yet.... or is it she's not the one? could i have been wrong yet again... or simply because i wasn't there at allz... perhaps perhaps perhaps...

maybe military life is changing me.... erasing my redundant feelings... turning me into a practical soldier... after all... i am a military dog...

anywayz... the pilots have all come up with the idea of giving ourselves our own callsigns... pretty fast i must say.... so they decided to go for the theme of magic. so we have callsigns (mostly contributed by myself) such as

Dark Magi
Warlock
Shaman

as u can see they all sound pretty coolz... i have to agree... so totally agree... as for me... well having a kick ass bad guy's name isn't actually my cup of tea.... though i thought Magi sounded cool... in the end my unofficial callsign is........................ *drum roll

Paladin

Paladin basically being a holy knight. found in games to be the knight in shining armour but being able to manipulate white (good) magic at his will... he vanquishes the baddies with a swing of his sword etc etc etc...

and b4 u start calling me weird pronounciations of Paladin.... the pronouciation goes like this

Pear - lel - din


anywayz... thats about all there is now...

Chua BS "Paladin" signing off...

out.