hai.... anywayz..... the last blog was rather a let out of lots and lots of emtions kinda blog.... made me feel better in a way....

well today PTM was ok lar.... got a DEF C6 for common test..... each paper has only one component that i screwed up in which i could have gotten a much better grade.... i estimate could have gotten a BDF B4... so yahz....

well during PTM we basically talked about my scores and how sucky it was..... then suddenly she asked me whether i wanted to go to our local uni... i kinda like told her... yahz... but not yet.... cause i'll be joining the RSAF anywayz.... so they'll subsidise my uni.... well... not really subsidise... more like sponser... yahz.....

then mom told her about YFC and how much time it takes up..... like somem 8hours a week.... lol.... i think that value is highly understated.... then she finding out that i have to take 6 theory exams and fly more than 30hours.... and also helping my friends in their work.... (i'm not saying its a burden, don't worry)..... aiz... time is running out..... i'm also burning out...... work is coming from everywhere.... my god... life is gonna be challenging... its gonna be hard but challenging....

yahz.... miss damo noted that i have been looking tired this whole year..... haha.... true true..... imagine my travelling time may equate to almost 3/4 the sleep i get a day...... and yahz... u know what.... its worth it. its what i call commitment.... when i make a promise i willl strive to the very best of my ability to make sure it comes true....

from a utilitarian point of view..... i guess i'll have to stem down my emotions for nowz.... doors are still open..... but subject to approval.... those attraction spikes that i get from girls that appeal to my interest have to be cut off.... however i'll keep that one feeling i have left close to my heart..... to motivate myself, to make myself strive like i used to in secondary school..... an inspirational source.... a source worth dying for.

ai...... work work work.... so much to do... so little time... but i'm starting to feel this drive coming in..... the shauny wave that will bring me to victory..... go shauny go go go!!! go shauny go go go!!!

"The wave of devotion and commitment is like the tide, it comes and goes.... all you need to do is catch it." --- Chua BS