what a long week at work...

so many things learnt. so many new things to learn... things can't get any better than this. what i'm learning now is really quite crazy... i mean i'm just brand new to the airforce and now i gotta learn how to book airspace, deconflict timings, work with higher ranking people. its just quite intimidating at times... i'm like hey i'm just 21... and i'm talking shoulder to shoulder with people who's like twice my age. and is ranked 4 times above me... and have titles like Base Commander... Commander of xxx group... (well until he shoots a question i can't answer then my shoulder's kinda pinned to the floor...)

and for the first time in my life... i feel that deadlines really do have a double meaning to it. one is that you have to finish by this time. and the other... face certain death cause the person that has tasked you to do it will die by THE person that tasked him to do it. its like facing a fate WORSE than death... though there normally isn't such a thing... unless is knowing living a fate whereby no one recognises you anymore... sometimes i get that and its fucking saddening... when your prescence is just ignored... when people think of you as a fly on the wall... anyway who cares.... i click with who i can... those that i can't... well sad to say i try my best but well.... lets just say it takes to hands to clap. 

Its bring along your girlfriend for a trip to ubin next week... and the bros were suggesting it today... though they subtly hinted its bring along your girlfriend.... they were like... eh bring along A & E and the sisters... then when they looked at me, well.... there was a moment of silence and the topic changed... well yeah.... it was great while it lasted... now my heart must learn to move on. its learnt to love wholeheartedly.... its gotta learn how to let it go. yupz... so its either somehow, someway, some girl just falls out of the sky and is the perfect match for me... ha! like how could that happen... the only gals i meet now at well established air force personnel. and coincidentally they're A & E.... lol... not the same A & E that i mentioned earlier.

some random thoughts for today:
- Hancock? uh.... its an interesting idea... but not fantastic
- Warrant Officers are people whom i deeply respect. cause they're good at what they do. and they still humbly show their respect to an officer. (thats why i greet them first)
- Mr and Mrs C? hahaa.... mr and mrs chua is it? =P
- Whenever i receive an sms it just brings a smile to my face... even though its work. (you'll find out when you hear it for yourself. haha...
- Can platonic relationships really work out?