you know when they say the human is made up of Mind, Body and Soul? well here's a quick summary of ME.

Mind: Overwhelmed.
Body: Fatigued
Soul: Torn

My mind is overwhelmed simply because of my new task and also some relationship problem. my new task as *classified* is making me work for long hours doing NEW things every single time. its like at 9am its learn how to walk. 10am learn how to run. 11am learn how to swim. 12pm learn to cycle. Lunch while moving to next destination. 12.30pm learn to play piano. blah blah blah... you get the idea. the worst thing is. i spent 2 of my 5 days eating my lunch while i was driving from point A to point B. relationship wise, well... i'll elaborate later...

My body is fatigued cause i've been working in office for 11 hours a day. working at home for another 3 hours. Spending time eating meals. 2hours. 3 hours of downtime. 3 hours of sleep. and 2 hours for my special someone. thats all... and worst still i get dreams of work. no comment... need i say more? its getting fatigue cause i have to constantly learn new things, attend meetings and drink coffee JUST to stay awake.

My soul... ah..... why is it torn? its because my soul tells me 2 different things about her and her relationship. i won't mention the details cause its her privacy. but to me. ONE part of me wants her back. to hold her close once again. the OTHER part of me just wants her to be happy. and now they're in conflict with each other. cause she's moving on and logically granting her happiness is making sure she's happy with her guy. but then knowing her history with him makes me think twice (and other stuff not revealed) Is letting her be with him really going to grant her happiness in the long run? what happens if someday something happens to her and her happiness is taken away from her. could it have been my mistake? i am not one to dictate her life, but only to wish for her happiness. hence Too Openly Roasting Nuts. yesh ladies and gentlemen. T.O.R.N.

Having an Overwhelmed Mind, a Fatigued Body and a Torn Soul... i think the only thing that is keeping me in one piece is work. cause i'm too busy to feel the pain of my torn soul. too busy to have the time to feel the fatigue. and well... with the Overwhelmed Mind. well the fear of getting lashed for a job poorly done or getting my boss in trouble is keeping me going. and HENCE...

HARMONY AMONGST THE CHAOS

the thing i hate is my pay per hour has dropped from $18.30 to $12.70 per hour. on the bright side, at least i can still support my car that see's me through my days...