back in singapore!

ok haven't had the time to blog and i've really been busy. short notes of what i've been doing.

1. Catching up with friends
2. Meeting up with my girl
3. Taking leave
4. Adjusting to the weather
5. Redoing my room
6. Catching up with my secondary school

yah thats about what i've been doing lately.

so what interesting topic shall we talk about... haha... lets talk about my girl! =)

well we finally got to meet up after longing for each other for the past 8 months. she was not feeling at her best so i guess. but when i caught first sight of her. the emotions that ran within me was crazy... like bursts of excitement were going off inside me. and blood was rushing to my head... the first hug we had was so fulfilling... i thought i was in heaven. like all the months of waiting had finally paid off. she was just as pretty as she was in her photos. there couldn't be anyone happier inside OG. lol... imagine we hugged in OG. *watever right? lol...

then we went to the tailor. she had to do some fitting of clothes and we did our catching up. i'll just put something down so that both of us can remember but probably you won't understand. somehow i felt that there were so many opportunities that i could hold your hand... (perhaps we were both wanting it) but yet i didn't think it was time yet. perhaps soon. soon...

some lessons learnt for us is that long distance relationships are really very erm... interesting i guess. like when we were 12000km apart. our bond towards each other was really something. we talked about anything under the sun / moon (different time zone) and we could lose track of time altogether. now that i'm back... somehow things feel just plain awkward. like you're no longer -audre- but you're audrecia... as in... the feeling is somehow different. like we can still be close but the chemistry that we shared over the internet somehow hasn't sparked yet.

coupled with the fact that she's into her new job now. she's really busy and with my current posting... i'm really free... i'm starting to feel this longing to be with her again. this URGE! (get the severity of the word?) not say to go out on 6hour dates or something like that... i mean just to have like dinner with her. or just send her home is all i ask for. just to spend some time with my darling. some people may think that its a waste of time just to accompany her for an hour or so. but i don't think so. its that i can spend 1hour of MY day with her.

yah so thats her and me.

met up with my friends yesterday and learnt something quite interesting from a girl's perspective.

her boyfriend is currently overseas and has the same symtoms of what i had. the longing to be with his gf. so he will sms to he gf on what is she doing, where is she going out to and who she's going out with. basically he wants to know what exactly is she doing now. i can perfectly understand him cause i was in his shoes towards my darling... and today i got to saw how his gf felt. and it wasn't a pretty sight... she was complaining to us about how erm... restrictive he is. knowing every single thing that she's doing. i never saw it in that light before. and i've learnt my lesson from it that i should learn to give my darling her freedom and respect her decisions. as she has mentioned before mutual trust is very important and right now i need to really build on that.

not that i don't trust her. its somehow an insecurity that whatever we've built together may not take off. and a few other things i won't explain here. its for us to know only. but for me i'm trying to reverse this negative thoughts into positive thoughts. (think "what you mean i only get 1 free stuffed toy?" now becoming "oh thats great! i get a free stuffed toy") sounds bo liao huh... haha... but the things i'll do to make it happen for the both of us. except maybe to improve my chinese. :P

ta

PS: to my darling... *huggies...