phoo... today was one heck of a scary experience.... woke up as per normal, sat down and ate breakfast..... was an uneventful shower and breakfast till suddenly this sharp feeling went through my chest.... like as if i got stabbed..... could barely breathe and every breathe i took i felt even more pain... soon i was lying on the bed gasping for air as i tried to grasp something to ease the pain within..... my parents were like in a shock..... they also didn't know what was happening..... i was trying my best with each breathe to tell them what was going on.... but that pain was something that couldn't get worse..... i could barely feel the rest of my body as the pain in my chest grew and grew.... then slowly the pain eased off..... but it was still there.... but at least i could breathe through my nose again.. .all along before i was breathing through my mouth and still i was gasping for air....

thought it was over.... but soon enough it came back again..... hyperventilation.... gasping for air.... pain in the chest..... and it came back even stronger..... i thought i outta try inducing a vomit to help clear things..... bleahx!!!! not much effect.... lol..... but i knew i had a lot of gas coming out from my lungs.... weird..... its like how come my lungs got gas? something like that lahz... lol ... then quickly rushed back cause of the pain..... needed to lie down again.... god.... pain eventually eased down again.....

another 5 mins later.... ARGH!!!!!!! the pain came back again........ this time my dad didn't take a chance.... 995!!! in case you're wondering thats the ambulance number....

before i knew it paramedics were all over me..... slowly moving me out and into an ambulance..... remember as i was pushed out on a table/wheel chair.... or rather pushed into the lift he kinda like rammed my toes into the corner of the lift.... thanks manz...... as if the pain in my chest wasn't enough... lol...

pee poh pee poh pee poh.... by now the pain was almost gone already..... went to A&E, went for ECG and blood test and doctors couldn't find the source of the problem...... only suspicions.... diaoz..... then they revealed that my white blood cell count was higher than the upper normal limit..... and he was very realistic.... he told my mom this:

"your son's white blood cell count is quite high. mesuring 444 where 440 is the upper normal limit. *silence* he's abnormal... *more silence* "

diaoz so i've an unknown infection in me now..... thats not right..... so now i've got 2 more medicals scheduled for me.... my god.... what happened manz...... got a lot lot lot of paper work to do nowz..... Air force school, aeromedical centre.... sad.... then went to the cashier..... to pay for my medical of course.....

"sir can i have your 11B..."
"here u go"
"thank you sir....... *beeps & zzzzzzzssss* ok thank you sir, this is your bill and prescription"

total bill = 288....
less government subsidy = 208
less SAF subsidy = 80
what i have to pay.... $0.00

thank you SAF!!!

That Fateful Night

today was also something important to me..... a pressing question i had to find out the answer to it.... i guess only you know galz.... i fell for you before i enlisted.... and now here i am in the same position again.... that fateful night when we went home together.... at first i thought something was not right.... it was sort of like coming into my private space.... soon enough i thought whether you really meant it.... but i knew you were under the influence of alcohol so i held myself back.... it wouldn't be nice and we would be dishonouring ourselves.....

but that night has taught me so many lessons.... i've felt like i'm on top of the world.... that fateful night.... i felt as if we were connected..... but you've told me that you may have gone too far... well i understand.... if this question wasn't answered... i wouldn't know where we were after that night..... friends or something more than that.

you say that i would question my loyalties to you if someone else came into the picture? my principles are well rooted and i wouldn't do that..... but of course with zilch experience all i can say is i don't understand how you feel. thats true gal..... so true.....

best of all is that i've manage to clear up my mind about this matter and i know that night didn't mean much to you as it did for me. its ok.... i understand.... i guess all i can say is that i was blessd that night. what will happen from tomorrow onwards? will you ignore me altogether? can our relationship still continue?

i wonder....

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was surfing the net today doing some bo liao stuff that my friend asked me to try.... type my name and search it in yahoo....

lol.... found my name on 3 websites... one being outram's website.... my cousins blog and a very curious one... on an outramians' blog ... quite cute.... addressed as mr shaun chua.... during my relieft teacher days.... ahha..... power.... here's the extract...


mr shaun chua came in to relief our class today..
mr leonard cheong was not here today..
n ya..mr shaun chua told me mr cheong asked mi collect the hw..
sian man... abt 3/4 of the class hand up nia?
ya.. too shag to hurry them..
so i left de task to sylvester at the end of de day.
lol

ya.. u miht be wonderin who MR shaun chua is..
his the ex outramian..
de 1986 fella.
lol..
he told mi he was in de same class as lionel..
n ya.. he was telling mi stoories abt lionel..
suppah hilarious..
like his very very short.
class makes fun of him..
n lionel always ask him for help when it cums to POA.
n his very playful n irritatin in class at times..
n has a colorful character..
yeap.. de rest i cant realli remember n dun realli bother too..
lol

yupz..... anyway today has been one hell of a day...... feel like a load has been taken off my lungs.... looks like i'm officially single... not again.. but still... i'm offically single still... haha......

thanks to the friend who cheered me up this evening.... i am certainly a very low radar signature target for ém girls to see..... lol.....

shauny
out.