the end of a year.... the beginning of a career....

as almost every other blog i've read today has said... its the end of 2005..

wat has 2005 been for me? well it has a lot of ups..... a few downs but a whole lot of fun....

i've officially left the MOE and finally become a non-student.... uh yahz..... 12 years of formal education has finally come to an end with a relatively ok A level cert..... a BBC B3 and band 2 ifor project work..... not too badz..... i mean judging how screwed up i was as a JC student..... ironically my worst subject for A levels was my best subject in JC.... so yesh..... i've officially been converted into an arts student... once upon a time being a business student.

i became a PILOT!!! finally after 1 year 6months and 26 days..... and a grand total of 69.9 hours of flight time...... í've earned my wings.... yipee!!!!

i lost my pink ic and got a green nauseating looking card called an 11B. i've finally become a dog of the military. in the hope of being a Military Pilot. to further my dreams and turning them into reality. for a greater good or serving my country. thats who i wanna be.

i started learning how to drive!!! yeahz..... fun fun. looks like i'm developing two styles of driving, one being the "careful i'm driving the president" method and the other "careful i'm the president driving" method. :P basically it speaks for itself. smooth and comfortable ride versus initial D style.

i came to the realisation that i've found the perfect girl in my life. the dream girl as i affectionate called her. its no more like.... a list of things i'd like in a girl. cause she IS the girl. but lol.... the irony is that i'm still single. haven like told her yet. cause i'm heading over to aussie for almost a year. it wouldn't be fair for the both of us. :)

before i realised my dream girl... i met a new friend from YFC. well it was a fateful saturday when i went back to fly and followed an old YFC friend and we went to meet the new blood of YFC. meet Willard, Brandon, Nicholas, Damien and a girl that came later.... knew her simply as Lee WL then..... had the scariest of faces. ready to bite anyone that stepped on her tail. yeouch! soon we shared so many times in YFC together. she helped me so much in getting back into my wings. cause i barely knew anyone anymore. no more 1986 course mates. all alone and out of currency. simply put it. i was an old bird. soon got to know her more closely with a particular sengkang encounter. perhaps it was then that i felt that i wanted to protect her or like be an avenue of support for her. and perhaps i was. i thought we could even go one step further before i enlisted. well i thought wrong. :( lol.... it was the darkest 2 weeks of my life. rejected. (my first rejection btw. :P well it was my first time asking too) stuck in unfamiliar ground in the army. no HAIR... getting moved around like dogs. yupz. but now.... we're just friends at least i hope we still are.

brings me to some of the biggest boo boos i made this year....

i love to screw things up. including my love life. and now i know why.... firstly cause i'm too sensitive to my own feelings and people's feelings. in the end my feelings end up confused.... i wonder whats happening now and make a decision and then my feelings get confused again... and it becomes like an aircraft spin. it keeps on getting worse till it comes to the point that its paralyzing. she just becomes like some divine goddess that i cannot see or talk to comfortably. like a bottle of coke shaken and not stirred.... the amount of gas pressure inside in ridiculously ridiculous.

yupz.... and moreover a recent psychological test i did. i found out that i'm kinda screwed up. lol... firstly i have difficulties in making decisions because i weigh them out in such detail that in the end i get confused. to complement things i tend to give up easily. so. ahem.... scenario presented:

Is She1 or She2 better?

She1 is more socialble. She2 is more outgoing.
She1 is more fun. She2 is more sporty.
She1 is loves relaxing. She2 is loves working.
She1 is barely exists. She2 exists all the time.

Burning question.... who is the one???
thinks...
thinks....
thinks...

ah fuc it.
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yupz.... complementary psychological traits.... :P

so what do i want for 2006?

"To strive in all that i do. for my career, relationships and commitments."

ps... and to be more true and brave in expressing my feelings. i suck at that. :P

and for everyone. HAPPY NEW YEAR....

i'm going for my first countdown with my friends... in my life! always counted down with my parents. :)