elloz everyone... as u can see from the post below this one.... yup thats ma wonderful and hard earned "WINGS"... officially being a Private Pilot now.... life's a lot different... i'm no longer flying.... lol... irony...

anyway... NS or a period of "No Shaun"... haha corny... is exactly 11hours and 15mins away.... knowing that.... i have many regrets that have come to mind....

firstly.. i never got to train hard enough for my NS... thats important... been slacking at home for way...... way... too much.....

2nd-ly... well.. uh..... its not much of a regret liaoz... cause i felt that hey.... something is seriously preventing me from saying it... probably some divine intervention.... but i've just sent THE sms of my lifetime... i know its HORRIBLE sending a message SOOO important!!!! i'm just kicking myself in the butt doing this.... but like a search and rescue helicopter... it can only have a window of opportunity for a short period of time... and for me... today's window of opportunity.... has effectively expired... but i've no regrets as i wait for the reply.... for i know what will happen soon enough... is something that i may feel sad for.... or overjoyed.... but at least i can go in to NS clearing my doubts in my mind... very important.... cause its about HER.

i wonder whether you'll read this.... but don't feel guilty that you've broken my heart... well at least assuming if u rejected me in ya reply... (i'm typing what i can b4 u do reply... lol) but i've never regretted being there for you when i could. sharing what care i could and enjoying life as our paths ran alongside together for this short period of time. its been fun and a life changing experience sharing this time with you... falling for you was no regret of mine... it was perhaps the fact that i truly felt things could work out between the two of us. you're a lot more beautiful than you think you are. you may say you're rough and violent... but thats just one side of you... the softer and gentler side of you is seriously hard to find.... or rather "masked"... but as i got to look behind the mask and go backstage to where the actress removes her mask... that is where i began falling for you... thanks girl.....

but if you do.. well..... *hugs babe.... you've made me the happiest recruit entering tomorrow... and rest assured while u brave the day with your exams... you'd have made one guy a lot happier than anyone else... ^_^ whatever happens... i will hold true to my heart and not let u fall... with every single bit of power that rest in my 2 hands... i will not let you fall... and if i do let you fall... let those 2 hands be the ones to pick you up once again....

ding... came to my mind that she might reply and say.... "i'll think about it..." lol... anyway... who knows what she'll reply ehz??? the seconds feel like minutes... and every 5 seconds my phone blinks green to tell me nothing new has come up.... but it feels like its blinking freaking fast.... my heart is racing as if a gun was pointed towards my head... as if i was going to emcee in front of a 1000 people audience...

its pretty weird having me to type all of this out.... as if i'm writing the pages of the future... lol.... but as my last blog entry.... this important finale.... is very suited to end my blog for another 2 weeks...

but rest assured i'll still be "blogging"... in camp that is... brought a book for me to pen down my thoughts.... journal style!!! lol... probably will take photos of it when i come home....

the romance of love and desire continues or ends..... the time that sms finally comes in... i have taken the leap of faith..... no amount of wings or parachutes can hold me back..... babe....

with that..... i bid my blog and all its readers.... farewell... and GOOD LUCK!! well for 2 weeks that is... :P

chua bs 0717. out.