XPeriences can never be fully XPressed in a textbook

short post...

had a nice dream last night that was extremely extremely nostalgic...

it was a simple day (without all the A levels to worry about) and i was moving to this school for some concert with my cousin being one of the main organisers (student organisers). then for some reason i bumped into this girl (is she the one? might be who knows ^_^), we said our hi's and she decided to tag along to follow me to this concert. seated together closely enjoying the show....ha..... the smile on her face and to know that she doesn't have to worry about the big stress of her life now made me feel so happy... so complete.... so full....

then we started walking together... holding hands knowing life is so sweet if you take it with lots of chocolate and snacks... (em would probably go "fat pilot!") started heading to this market place.... (like those pasar malam) ahhh..... feels like heaven recalling this dream.... i remember seeing zhao yuan and chee han meeting us at the pasar malam and telling us to hurry to the badminton court... but we kinda both just strolled along... exchanging deep looks into our eyes... thinking about what the other was thinking... "did she want to join the party? or did she want to spend a bit more time together?"

to the bus we go... what number i dunno... but what i do know... was a quiet moment together at the corner of the bus where no one could disturb us... did we kiss? nahz... but we did this cool ET thing... making brain contact by putting our foreheads together and just keeping that eye contact for just that bit longer... got a bit more moo-ey goo-ey after that... probably if i were to tell ya all you'll probably gross out...

but heyz... what can i draw from this dream?
strong passion for someone (thats for sure)
desire to get rid of my life's burden now... (A levels)
amisdt the fact that i knew she wasn't burderned in this dream... reflects the need for me to release many of my own burdens...
life now is coming together with its sweet moments despite the A levels making things all bitter.. what a shitter...
is the love that i am to give one day, some day... going to be devoted and passionate love?

most important question...
"am i shutting myself in again?" (happens when i'm really stressed by exams)
"is reality too painful for me?" (highly doubtful though)

XPeriences can never be fully XPressed in a textbook