hello hello hello....

haha took a long break from blogging.... :P

what happened from then till today? well.... a whole year passed.... why? cause i turned 19!!!! haha....

17 december 2005 @ 1010am.... i turned 19... yea!!! finally that time of the year has come for i can say i'm the same age as all the 1986-ers.....

but then.... this year wasn't like my typical birthday month where i'll be busy preparing for my celebration.... "should i have it at a chalet? BBQ? " all i asked this year was a quiet birthday.... nothing grand or spectacular...

why? hmmmm .... dunno maybe partly due to some events that happened this month... namely that acute chest pain incident.... and also the more sensitive one.... to let a simple affectionate moment turn into an emotional tsunami....

been thinking about it.... why did that happen.... but of course i won't disclose it here... :P more questions i asked.... but its for me to keep close to me.....

but how did it happen? i opened my heart to her.... ha...sounds childish but to me i feel like i'm a sentimental person.... only showing my soft side to someone when i'm truly committed to her... maybe its normal... maybe its just me..... i dunno..... its like the belly of a turtle..... soft and tender and then things just weren't to be..... like they say twice the height twice the fall twice the pain..... god knows who said that... but it sure sounds like someone said it. lol....

lesson learnt? well..... don't so easily give your heart to her. i knew i wanted and would then..... but now..... i'm kinda confused...... i know what she told me one night.... i understand that fully.... but i detect some hidden worries / concerns.... like a scar that haunts her.... hmmmm..... i wonder...... but i guess all i can do now is calmly bow and take a step back....

so much for living up for my principles.....

anyway for all that..... i got my quiet birthday party.... family lunch at lau hokkien.... with my grandparents and uncle and his japanese family! .... power..... had a power bdae cake..... banana chocolate cake!!! and my Sheridan's coffee liquor...... solid.... :)

dinner was simple too..... had Han's with my dear parents..... and... had a simple meal....

all in all i couldn't ask for much more for my birthday...... i'm just 19..... i don't seem to feel like ive accomplished a lot this year.... no reason to rejoice much also..... so a simple birthday for a simple me...... on this birthday on the 17th dec 2005....

good day.

PS: happy 102nd birthday to the history of powered flight !!! 17th december 1903 @ 10.30am... at kittyhawk.... where it all began.