--- "Open your Mind" opening title for Ah! My Goddess, an anime ---

We meet above the deep blue earth.
The wind passes by..
A snow white feather gently falls, swaying
I want to lavish my previous love with hugs
I'm sure i have the strength to protect the one i love

Open your mind
Letting my wish drift far on the breeze
I have invisible wings
You can go to the place of freedom

evening one and allz... its been awhile since i blogged... or rather i've been wanting to blog ever since this morning.... hee..

friends have been asking me... like my darling sis emily.... "shaun.. are u ok? you're talking funny..." and my mis.. erm... good friend rachel also.... "ah.... i sense a puppy is in love...."

haha... hmmm.... as much as i would like to answer that question... hmmm... deep down inside... i can't stop thinking of her... sounds so typical as to what a guy would say right? but hey.... i'm gonna share it with ya all... lol.... ever since my last entry... the 29th march... that day was the changing day for me... will she know? hmmm... i wonder... was it a significant day for her? i wonder...

now i wake up and the first thing that happens to me as i roll around in bed slowly gaining consciousness..... her jolly face comes comes to me and then i just can't help but whisper her name and smile all the way....

lets just take yesterday and today for example.... spent the night at my cousins house... as he was playing my game i brought for him to play... as he was brutally eliminating every bloody alien that moved... i was sitting down and thinking of her.... thinking of the happy moments we spent together.... how we shared our experiences and other stuff.... its good going to my cousin's house... so nice and big... got time for me to sit down and think... to think good.. what is this relationship that is growing between us... i can't doubt it.... it is growing.... but where were we to begin with? and where are we headed to?

were we just acquaintances progressing towards friendship?
were we friends taking the next step to closer friendship? (think circle of trust)
were we pals growing towards lovers?
were we simply course mates growing a brotherly-sisterly bond?
or are we simply beacons of hope for each other... pushing each other on?

i tried my best to answer these questions yesterday.... and honestly... i couldn't answer it... as much as i'm ashamed of how i can't see the path down this road.... this much has dawned upon me yesterday... a simple analogy... it takes 2 hands of the same side to shake... i can't shake my left hand with my right... its not possible.... ok ok... haha... sounds kinda stupid... (like duh.. isn't that obvious??) hee...... but on a more serious note.... i'm clueless...

now i'm trying to recall that fateful day our paths crossed each other.... i so happen to remember every single detail about it... except the day it happened.... lol.... thats damm sad.... it was a fateful december afternoon.... anymore you'll have to find out yourself.... but its all in my memory....

now that NS draws near... i'm thrown into a serious dilemma.... the leap of faith.... (man are such silly yet interesting individuals.. they fall for a woman and take the leap of faith...... they try so hard to gain their favour or acceptance... that it is up to them to catch their fall... ) yet as silly as it is.... i'm on the jumping board already.... for the past uh.... (secret) times... i've been simply walking close to the jumping board and retreating to safety... (think mr bean and the swimming pool episode) the most ironic part is.... i won't know what to do if she catches me.... and what to do if she doesn't.... of course the latter i'll just keep falling and break my teeth... :P what if she catches me? what next? NS.... hai.... "No Shaun" :P.. hmmm.........

reading a book now that deals with psychology and love... very interesting.,... will be sharing it with ya as i read it..... very difficult... a lot of words i don't understand... but anyway.... love is seriously an over rated word.... cause love isn't the main component in our lives...... its actually romance. romance consists of love and desire... the love is achieved by the "security", "tenderness", "intimacy" and desire is achieved by "adventure", "diversion", "stimulation"... these are the key words that drive each of the components in romance....

the biggest problem in our modern world is that love doesn't go with desire.... lets give u this scenario... u have a gf/bf that u seriously love so much.... but lets say u have a chance to go out with your idol.... a hot model or a hunky model.... or a famous singer or actor/actress... you'd definitely be dumping your bf/gf... that my friend.... is desire.... but sadly... desire alone is like a fire without fuel... its burns out fast.... thats why brothels are still in the business... its for men and uh... women? go to satisfy their desire... thats why men have mistresses.... the wife for the love... the mistress for the desire... and there u have a romantic life.... ^_^''

perhaps that is why most of us NEVER get why othello killed desdemona.... or in other words... we never get the idea that fuelled Shakespeare's plays.... well at least tats for me... cause in the olden days... as in way back............... couples did experience romance.... but i thread carefully cause this was also among the age of political marriages and arranged marriages... there is also an interesting explantion to it. more importantly... a keyword that describes romance is "PASSION".... ah yesh..... have we ever even thought of using this word in our relationships? uh... excluding myself.... and kalai and zhi kai..... and maisurah... and and and... pramodh... and whoever i missed out.... we're the virgin singles... (happy single all our life or flat out suck at getting attached... :P you choose)

but anywayz.... we've got radio silence for another 18hours... so i'm just here blogging my feelings out... jia lat.. she read this i won't get the chance to take the leap of faith... haha.... anyway.... will she find out even if she reads this.... haha.... nevermind lahz.... i feel so much better now that i've let out some steam..... or rather a lot... but anyway i wasn't able to spend my last weekend with her... so sad..... oh wellz...

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oh yahz.. here's some interesting facts for you all about the youth flying club.

some interesting facts for you pilots out there.... and the speed demons among you pilots... you're 17 now and you're speeding already...

Did you know that when we're rotating for takeoff... we can be pulled over by the traffic police for speeding... cause we're speeding at 101.86km/h...

Did you know when we fly at 800 for downwind... things appear to be so slow... but if you drive at 95knots... you're gonna be freaking speeding at 175.94km/h

Imagine doing your advanced turns at 50ft of the ground.... you're doing 166.68km/h... imagine pulling that 1.5+ Gs and spinning at 166km/h.... wow....

Did you know our poor tyres accelerate from 0-40 to 55knots or 74 to 100km/h in like half a second every single touch and go we do?

Did you know that when we land... you've got 2000lbs of alumminium alloy, fuel, you and your instructor resting on TWO oleo extensions... your suspension system... imagine.... 4.5 inches of grace that seperates you between a soft and beautiful landing to a WHAM and your ass getting whacked...

To beat all of these flat down... did you know an F-16 cruises at about 400knots? thats 740.8km/h??? thats 205m/s and the sound barrier is at 333m/s... meaning in under a minute... it'll complete a 2.4 "run"... no wonder it can only fly for 1 hour.... (with main fuel tanks only) cause it can effectively fly from singapore to tioman and back.

flight 0717 pilot chua bs out.