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it is painful for me to write this entry today... so bear with me...

basically one of the main topics is Charles... strange actually... i kinda wanted to accept him really well in my life.... but somewhat conflicts my basic principles... (i'll post them another day when i can think of them) well... basically he has this habit of talking during lectures asking them questions which are sometimes a bit irrelevant....

its been bugging me especially lately... during GP especially when i know he knows his stuff but i don't... and he still talks and disrupts the lecture as he addresses the lecturer and shatters my flow of thoughts... i try to calm my temper in me since only stuff that contradicts my basic principles really pisses me off.... i shall not say that today... well.... today leo and myelf told charles not to talk since he was disrupting the lecture... and that he was seated behind us... he went on and on and i asked him to keep quiet.... but on the second time maybe i was a bit more harsh since i kinda have a weakness for people who question my principles too much... so i was like gave a firm finger on the lips to ask him to keep quiet.... after that i think he got quite pissed at us... i guess...

well... during break i kinda went with zhi kai to see mr isaac lim to ask him about the hike we are planning and he has offered himself to be the teacher in charge for this event since it will be held outside cjc with us forming the admin team only... so we're pretty happy that thats done and we can start preparing our route... ya emi will be helping out too along with sae'dah (sorry if i got the spelling wrong) so it looks like we'll be easily getting our admin team in no time... its the last thing zhi kai and myself can do for our scout unit since we have received offiical notice that we will be closed down at the end of the year unless we get the Frank Cooper Sands award bronze this year... i feel so guilty that i, as an Assistant Senior Patrol Leader, failed to bring up a new batch of leaders that could support the scout unit... proves i'm not a good leader... i'm not there yet... i just couldn't break the mentality that NCC & NPCC are so damm cool and scouts are for sissies.... (thats what most outramians think) its not cool.... sigh.... i shall say no more... its for them to decide...

went to stc today did the survey and interview.... all went pretty well.... just that i was rather depressed....feeling really beaten and down...

i mean.... imagine.... one's feelings of trust, loyalty, love, affection, respect, honour.... powerhouses that drive one's emotions were to explode all at once in 1 second.... wouldn't that be bad???? haha thought came across my mind today since i kinda flung my lit with an F... erm...for Othello's paper that is... "I know my price!!! i am worth no worse a place!!!!!" oh well... that literary awakening really got me thinking about what would have happened to othello when his world came crashing down on him? i mean dun you think he's just a poor guy who gets messed around and is driven to insanity??? tis outcome would be terrible!!! ZOUNDS!!!!! it would be a TRAGEDY!!!!!!!!!!!

well... i guess the better man won... Iago.... how sly and cunning you are... to have twisted and manipulated the characters and most certainly othello and forced them to their own ends... how cunning and evil you are.... i salute your excellence... "Iago, use Desdemona well..."

"You petty humans assume too much!" - Shaun Chua